If you've been reading my blog, then you've probably figured out I'm not the nicest person.  By that I mean I view magic as tool, and I have no problem using it to further my goals.  For the record, yes I WILL use make to curse others if I feel it would be an effective use of my time and energy.

Now in my last post, I talked about cursing as a means to help the recipient learn whatever you feel they need to understand.  I"m not going back on that.  But I WILL point out that, that's not the only use.  I have been known to throw anal itch curses on people when I just wanted to make them suffer.  It's petty and I know that, so I own it.

I'm not out to reach enlightenment, I make no claims to be a saint.  I am human and I revel in it.  I LIKE being human.  I like that we aren't perfect because that means humans have the ability to learn and grow...assuming they apply themselves.  Some choose not to, at which point I come along and gleefully beat them with a clueX4.

The thing I see a lot of is people DENYING these less them pleasant aspects of themselves, these socially unacceptable things as if doing so will make them go away.  Trust me, it doesn't.  Instead they will not only find a way to manifest, it will likely be at a terrible time in a godawful way that very possibly will snow ball into something even worse.  This is the danger of repression.  So what's the alternative?  Embrace it.  Accept it.  Realize that this is part of you and as such it's in your control.  It's OKAY to be petty.  It's okay to get pissy.  Just make sure it's on your terms, rather then a knee jerk reaction.

And the same with spell work.   If you lack control in spell work, you're hooped.  If you try to power a spell with blind rage, yes it will be powerful, but good luck targeting that sucker.  This is of course assuming you can manage the necessary focus to make and send out a spell in the first place.

So what's the point of this post?  You don't have to be perfect.  You don't have to live by "harm none".  You don't have to go through life trying to be someone you're not.  What you have to do is figure out who you are, what you CHOOSE to do/be and then accept the consequences; good and bad.